I think a lot of people fall into this perspective that nobody will ever love them, and they take past experience as evidence. But really what this means is that the approach your using is unsuccessful. In reality, even if you have severe physical and mental issues, there are still people out there who will be into it, probably more than you realize. My advice is to lean into the statistics, go to an online dating site, clean up your profile and picture so you don’t come off as an axe murderer, and cast a wide net. You’ll be surprised at who might be interested.